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[Mar. 7th, 2007|11:25 am] |
Look for me if you want IM me if you want to know whats going on or if you want my new journal it takes two to communicate and you dont get to know whats going on unless you talk to me.
IM me at ElphabaxLives
xrakkausxheartx
bamxbreaksxthing
I needed to change after some things that happened last year needed a new change hope you step up and IM me I would love to keep in contact.
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| I am now twenty |
[Oct. 8th, 2006|07:05 pm] |
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The day flew by like it always does. October & come and gone and I am another year older. I got some cool things...clothes, movies, gift cards, and to top it all off...A TOP HAT!!!!. ....I love it. I walked around the store with it on it was funny....well the weekend was cool spent it witrh Kit watching movies chatting online and just hanging out. Though last night I got terribly sick and am still sick. But other then that all is good. |
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| Its been awhile since I had shed a tear |
[Oct. 1st, 2006|04:00 pm] |
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I was sitting in my room this afternoon and I was listening to "Cancer" from My Chemical romance. And I actually cried cause I realsied I look at the picture of my Grandfather daily but I havent thought abut him as often as I should and I cried, and it felt good. I havent done it in so long I was starting to feel hallow |
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| Dude this sucks |
[Sep. 28th, 2006|01:10 pm] |
Okay SO I am taking a dance class and guess what I broke my fucking toe hbut being the hardass I am I am danicng on it, nothing can stop me from doing what I love bitches. Okay back to other things....Things have been going okay, kinda blah but hey things are usualyl like that on a college campus. I have taken to sticking to myself, I am sick of people judgeing me on stupoid shit, and I am sick of being left out on others.
I dont know whats happening on my birthday I may go home still up in there air though. I wanna be around people who love me and will actually make time to spend with me. It makes sense right. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|02:46 am] |
| [ | Where am I? |
| | Dorm room bed | ] |
| [ | My Brain Radio is playing |
| | "Call me when your sober" | ] |
So its three o'clock in the mornign and the fuckjung creepiest thing happened. "The lights are off and my roommmate and I are not able to sleep and we're talking and carrying on about random things and this bug black guy whistled then knocked on our window and asked us to let him in cause he forgot his code. So my roommate and I walked to the doors and let him in. And now neither od us can sleep cause we are freaked out. |
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| Okay so I havent posted in a while |
[Sep. 16th, 2006|12:23 am] |
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Okay so I have been kinda busy but I have an odd entry topc... Okay so I am in love wiht the song. "The Kill" from 30 seconds to mars, but watching the video hads me a little confused. Okay at one point it looks like the gy with long hair well it loks like he walks in on hiomself getting a blow job from a bear am I the only one who thinks this? |
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| Killing Loneliness |
[Sep. 3rd, 2006|12:13 am] |
| [ | Where am I? |
| | dorm room | ] |
| [ | My Brain Radio is playing |
| | Champagne for my real friends real pain for my sham friends | ] |
How can someone make you hate yourself. The act of being ignored makes you not feel worthy, the act of being alone makes thoughts of darkness cloud your once lit mind. You wanna feel loved and respected and instead you feel used and dejected and the heart thats on your sleeve lies broken and bleeding with each beat upon the gravel with the footprint still pressed fresh against it. How can someone mean so much to you, do the littlest thing and it seems insignificant but to you its like a dagger through the heart, and they keep on turning it. Then apologize....Doesnt anyone realise how empty two little words are. "I'm Sorry." Emotionless words that are constantly used. You wanna tell me that say it some other way, cry a little, pick up a goddamned phone and call me.
Homesickness, its a terrible thing and those who have ventured away even for the greater good,m even if it isnt foreign to them get it...It hurts it makes you feel empty and you ache. You feel like your constantly on the verge of crying and your frustrated. But no one understands this...no one can truly understand this, untill your lying in a foreign room even if its your new home away from home, bit it doesnt hold the warmth you usually feel, you just want a familar voice, or picture, or screen name and you get nothing, they dont understand the need to talk to chat, to some how put into words how your feeling...they probably dont care....they are too busy with thier own lives to care about someone they called friend, someone who was always there for them no matter what and only asked for a little time in return. But hey what else can I ask for, people have their own lives, other freinds....I guess...we've all just grown up and no longer need each other.
I dont want any comments, just think about it....everyone.....Dont abuse friendship I have seen too many end over idiotic things and in times like these, they are needed greatly. |
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| God save us, us college kids |
[Aug. 28th, 2006|07:10 pm] |
So First official day of college....I am tired my head hurts and I am having uber shin splints. It sucks, but I shall get over it.
I am soo tired...alas, I have dance class tomorrow who knows that that will entitle but we shall see and I will let you know in my next entry,. |
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| 2 days left |
[Aug. 24th, 2006|12:47 am] |
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I have relaised O only have two days left of Living here til I go back to school, and honestly I only want to go to school, "This town gets so boring." I love it....I wanna go, somehwere where peoplemlike me and I can act like myself and truly not have to deal wiht my mom and dad...I love them but I need a break. |
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| "Sew a needle pulling thread" |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|04:22 pm] |
I have been bored so abovew is what I have been doing in my free time. If you would like a pillow. Made randomly, by me. Contact me. And tell me a quote you want on the back. If you want them in certain colors I will ahve to charge. Right now I am using scraps ll pillows are 2-5 dollars depending on the size and material. |
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| Addiction realization |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|12:22 am] |
I realised I had a problem...I was addicted.
It wasn't nicotine, or caffine or drugs, or alcohol, My addiction is the internet. If I dont have it I go crazy. And now I realise I have to ween myself off my ten hours a day it is scaring my mom.
We had a power surge and I lost my internet and my mind, I spent an hour and a half trying to fix it and stupid me I woke my mom up to try and get it done. I feel stupid, so I am telling you all....starting from now On I am going to try and get on from 9-230 that way they cant complain about me being on constantly cause they will be asleep by then. I just doint want to scare her anymore....any idea's on what to do????
Leave a comment. |
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| heeebeegeebeee's |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|12:02 am] |
the creepiest random IM I have ever had.
July 30, 2006
[23:55] krugerjm2000: hi
[23:56] fiyeronfabala: hi.
[23:56] krugerjm2000: how are u
[23:57] fiyeronfabala: I'm ok
[23:57] krugerjm2000: i was looking up vampires and i got ur name
[23:57] fiyeronfabala: Lol..thats kinda funny
[23:57] krugerjm2000: huh
[23:57] krugerjm2000: why is that
[23:58] fiyeronfabala: Well I study them for my writings. I am kinda obsessed with them.
[23:58] krugerjm2000: have u ever drank blood
[23:58] fiyeronfabala: Just thinking that soimeone looked them up and my name was tied is is amusing to me
[23:58] fiyeronfabala: Only my own when I cut myself.
[23:59] ElphabaXLives: [23:59] krugerjm2000: o would love to taste u |
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[Jul. 21st, 2006|05:16 pm] |
Okay its still a little cluttered cause I ahvent gottent he rest of my shelves up, Buit I love it all the same. and yes under my orlando bloom poster is like a thirty rubber ducks, cause I collect them. So tell me what you think about my decorating skills....dont you love my bed...and the huge stuffed duck is modleing a pair of dickie cut off with a my chemical romance tee shirt from hot topic. *grins * Thats Mikey and the brear with the skeleton body...thats gerard...AKA Rock and roll. |
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| Painted from head to toe |
[Jul. 18th, 2006|07:48 pm] |
| [ | Where am I? |
| | Livingroom couch | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | My Brain Radio is playing |
| | "I kissed a girl" Jill Sobule | ] |
So I am on the couch for the night. My room is half painted I have one more half to finish then another coat of Primier then at last the blood red paint shall be applied to my walls with finness. And then my evil lair of doom shall be complete Mwwahahahahah *chokes* damnit I can never master the evil laugh.
Okay so I pomise picstures of my room once it is complete and then I may even have some pics of me looking completely hot, just for the hell of it.
So right now I am completely bored out of ym skull and am watching the punish for the umpteenth time in three days.
Um..not much else to say....Mis eveyone drop me a line sometimes I am beginning to feel dead from lack of comments. |
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| I know this hurts...It was meant to |
[Jul. 15th, 2006|03:59 pm] |
| [ | Where am I? |
| | My bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | My Brain Radio is playing |
| | "Saying sorry" | ] |
The realization that you are no longer what you hoped you were. While walking through Price chopper I ran into A friends mom. When we got to talking I relaised how much I really did miss my closest friends, then the blow struck me. SLumber party blue. Once more I was a five year old not invited to a birthday party. Will this pain last forever, I understand that things are changing, and we as peopl are changing but does that constitute the right to loose my best friends over stupid differences and ideas? We like the same music, sort of, we are three parts to one whole? But is that whole cracked or fragmented. Do they still like me, am I just ebing paranoid? All these are possibilities that I am not to looking into. Finding that my summer plans will be ruined because my freinds "Out grew" me is a fear that I dont think I could survive. Being in the military I made friends and then soon after had to depart due to my fathers job. Will my entire life be like this a constant string of "nice to meets yous" and "I am sorry I have to go but it was fun." ? I cant handle that jst when I found people who understood me it blows up in my face first with some Bitch who claimed she couldnt be my friend because my parents are still together anmd I dont understand her needyness to be with people who were like her. Is this the same thing? Am I being dumped because My fmaily is together, Cause I ahev different veiws on certain things? Well maybe maybe not, I will never know, because I am too chicken to ask. My best choice is to ignore everything and see where it falls when its done, after all...with no friends, there is no one to miss me when I am gone.
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| Bang over |
[Jul. 12th, 2006|12:07 am] |
| [ | Where am I? |
| | My bed | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | My Brain Radio is playing |
| | Nikki FM | ] |
Bang Over: A term to describe how you feel the morning after a rock concet while you were head banging constantly.
Okay so I was in a mosh pit...got a few battke scars to prove it. Had some huge guy part the crowd so I could go to the bathroom. Saw Hawthorn Heights. (*wants to marry front man*) Story of the year.(The bassist and I go back...okay not really but he licked me once.) and Amberlain. (god band love some of thier song.)
2 ticketrs to punk rock concert -60$
tewo shirts - 55$
Pins and sticker - 3$
Having a ball moshing with your sister- Priceless
Comeing home compl;etely deaf and full of energy is driving me insane all I want to rp...with someone...anyone...god I need to get laid all these images in my head. Well see ya later that was my night. |
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